I consider myself a Christian. I am just really bad and acting like one. I have different views that what the Bible teaches and I've acted in such a way that I'm surprised I haven't been shunned from Heaven.
I know that no one is perfect. I've committed a lot of sins. We all sin daily. It's part of human nature. The last couple weeks or so it has been weighing heavily on me that something needs to change. I used to go to a private Christian school, but even then I was never "on fire" for God.
After dating B, I realized how important Christ really is in life. B, is an atheist. There, I said it. I thought would be okay with it because I was starting to consider myself for "spiritual" than religious. Yeah, that wasn't workin out so well. I have looked down on "hard core" "Bible thumping" Christians. I'll admit it. Was it a nice thing to do? Uh, NO! We all have been given the gift of free will. I chose to do more harm than good with my free will.
I've turned over a new leaf. I feel that I'm being drawn closer and that I need to take care of my responsibilities. I am a strong person, but without God I am weak.
I didn't know where to start when it came time to get back on the path of righteousness. I emailed a girl I've known since high school. She is an amazing and smart woman. She is on fire for Christ and it shows. She's going to help me/talk to me. I feel very fortunate to have her in my life :)
Thank you God for everything you have given me. Thank you God for loving me unconditionally.